I just make an Ass out of U and Me.

I think I’ve assumed for a long time that I should only use my knitting blog (this here.) to blog about strictly knitting related things. The problem with that is that there is so much more to my life than just finishing projects and posting them here. There is this whole side of my knitting life even that rarely gets reported on. Except in my personal journal, which sometimes gets a bit weepy or pathetic, though it does more often than not mention knitting as well.

I’ve been reading other knitting blogs though, most notably Crazy Aunt Purl (and I’m reading her book as well.), and more often than I thought these intrepid knitters mention their personal lives as well. Children, husbands, boyfriends, school, dreams, parents, animals, car trouble, friendships, yarn pr0n and other tidbits of real live people that exist past their knitting needles. I am not just fingers flying through superwash wool, I am also Daniella Cortez. I am also a sister, daughter, girlfriend, best friend, kitty and puppy mommy, student and employee/employer.

So here’s the skinny: I’m exhausted, full of emotion and going just a tiny bit crazy. If you read my personal journal as well, you’ll know that I have been slowly but surely cracking up the past few weeks. I’ve dug deep and found parts of my self that I forgot where there, and I’m not entirely happy about finding those bits and pieces. They need to be aired out and exposed to sunlight and fresh air, but like a sweet tooth that’s due for a filling it stings to air hit the open cavity.

I’m also incredibly fulfilled for the first time in my life, which I think may be why at this seemingly odd time, all this stuff is floating to the surface. I’m guessing that I’m in a solid enough spot in my life for the first time ever that I can actually handle the debris from years prior.  I’m in a stable, though certainly not perfect, relationship with a boy that is far too good for me. I have a job that I love, a decent wage from a family full of wonderful supportive employers. I am surrounded on a daily basis by a chaotic house full of life, noise, animals, people and most importantly YARN. I work in a creative yet still professional capacity. I get to flex my marketing, business relations, networking, management and sales muscles on a regular basis. Every day is different than the one before it and I have carved out at least an hour each week to go and sit on the patio of my favorite coffee house with three of the funniest, weirdest, wittiest women I’ve had the honor to befriend. (Plus whoever else shows up, but Christa, Laura and Laurel are the chicas I speak of.)

I am the proud mother of two miniature Schnauzers and a GIANT Maine Coon. The Schnauzers (Dixie and Allie) are often featured on this blog as the unfortunate models of my Puppy Couture line (available on Etsy.com), and the cat (who we refer to most often as ‘The Buhunkis’) is pictured more often than not destroying something expensive and/or intricate that I’ve knit, sewn or bought.

I also harbor an intense fear that my life is not ever going to be okay. This manifests in many ways, but mostly in kind of subtle ways. Like feeling insecure because I live with my boyfriend and his parents. I moved out of my parents house when I was just barely 17, and I feel like a mooch because I live here rent free. They won’t accept rent from me, but still….

I really ought to be writing my Sociology paper. It’s quite an undertaking, tackling several topics including: homosexuality, rape and prostitution. Good times! (It’s a Sociology of Deviance course. I love it.)

I also just received my Ravelry Scarf Exchange package from my swap partner. It was a box full of PENGUINS! (and a note with the statement “I really hope you weren’t joking about the penguins…”) Which of course I wasn’t. I love absolutely everything she sent, including the scarf, though by far the favored item is the little googly eyed sewn penguin she did. I think I’ll hang him from the mirror of my new Subaru Forester I’ll be buying at the end of this coming week. I might even velcro his knitted counterpart to the dashboard and just penguin out  my new ride. (Pictures of the whole package coming soon; just as soon as I get at least two sections of my paper done.) She also sent me two hanks of New Zealand Merino Wool *drool*. I think I love her.

On the to do list: Finish the scarf that I’m knitting for my swap partner and find equally exciting package extras. Finish the hat I’m knitting Gavie in time for the records I bought him to arrive so I can ship out a whole package of goodies for him. And finish the beret I’m knitting myself.

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